I’m Actually A Lot Stronger Than I Think
I just learnt this recently
I share parts of my life to people on my WhatsApp contact list through the WhatsApp status feature.
It can be deceptive.
I’m smiling, laughing and I seem to be living my best life.
But there have been times where I was in such deep pain and only a few were able to detect that I was hiding behind the jokes and memes and the fake smiles.
I was hurting. A whole lot.
But in the midst of the hurt, the pain, the ‘suffering’.
I always made time to enjoy myself.
This kinda sounds contradictory. Lool.
I’d hang out with friends when I can, I’d share a joke, sometimes I’d write out words of encouragement to myself and share to people.
Because even though life isn’t happening like I imagined it would, I’ve realized that life is very precious and this one life is all I have. So even in the midst of all the pain, I find little pockets of happiness here and there.
I didn’t realize this, but I’m actually a lot stronger than I think I am.
Because I don’t allow myself wallow in negative emotions for as long and I try to push myself out of this phase every time.
I’m not saying I’m doing a perfect job. But I know that I’m definitely trying my hardest to push through.
I’ve honestly just accepted that life would probably do its own thing and there’s a lot that’s not in my control. But I’m determined to make the most out of what’s in my control.
I’ve decided to spend time with people that I love and people that are around me. Because honestly, there’s not much to life than to just enjoy what you can while you can.