Get Me Out Of Here!

I feel trapped

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There is a disconnect between my spirit and my body.

My body says yes, my spirit says no.

My spirit says yes, my body says no.

I’m at war,

With myself.

I’m to put my body under subjection to the spirit.

But that’s been the hardest thing to do.

The things my body perceives, they are real, they make sense.

I can see, feel, taste, hear, smell the realities.

My spirit however perceives mysteries.

Mysteries that I can’t physically perceive, so in all honesty, it’s hard to subject to it.

Everyday is a new struggle.

It doesn’t get any easier.

As I overcome one thing, I battle another.

It makes living life hard.

I want out!

I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.

And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.

I have discovered this principle of life — that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.- Romans 7:15–25

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Sharon Stephen

A young Nigerian woman, sharing her thoughts on Faith, Medicine, Photography and Life in general. 💜